April 10, 2025, makes exactly 45 years since I first arrived at what would become Rainbow Hearth Sanctuary. It was mostly brush, dead trees, impenetrable cactus patches and big scary venomous bugs back then. I wasn’t in much better shape, and on top of my physical, mental & financial challenges coming out of a heartbreaking divorce, I was also a single mother to a darling little girl, Allison, who turned 5 shortly after we arrived here.
Sometimes these very difficult and humbling situations hold the seeds of great blessings, and so it was with me without visible means of support. I soon found myself to be a land owner and thanks to the unexpected and unsolicited generosity of others.
Still, I am quite sure I never would have stayed in the dangerous and unfamiliar environment had it not been for one thing: I began having visions. This was both welcome and deeply disturbing. Welcome because I had always been drawn to the Spirit World and invisible realities, and disturbing because I seriously doubted my own stability, and self worth. It would be many years, around 15 – before I was able to release the doubt and fully accept the validity of guidance.
By then I was able to see the practical results of what I had accepted as my life’s mission.
The “Mission Impossible” assignment had two parts. The first was to create a place where people could come to rest, revitalize and draw inspiration from an environment removed from the pressures of mainstream urban life… a place where Nature can influence us more directly. The huge lake in front of us and the vast reserves of underdeveloped land surrounding us assure that human impact is greatly reduced and natural elements are enhanced. Increase that impact with clean food and water, quiet, peace, beauty and safety, and visitors (both short and long term) can relax, unwind and begin to settle into deeper and more sensitive aspects of themselves. Creativity, intuition, vision and deep healing become more possible.
The second aspect of “Mission Impossible” is less commonly understood and requires a willingness to view the Earth and Cosmos as alive, intelligent and capable of partnering with humanity to create a currently unimaginable level of connection, beauty and fulfillment. From this perspective we can recognize that just like all living beings, the Earth has an energy field, and the integrity of that field will determine the health and coherence of this planetary organism, our Mother Earth.
Today their concept has more credibility as we humans awaken from the illusion that science and human intellect alone can conquer all mysteries and dominate all natural forces. Discussion of ley lines, frequencies, energy grids and power spots are more accepted.
Early on when I first arrived here I was trusting that the friends who had invited me here would provide us with a baseline of shelter, protection and community. But that was not to be. Withing 2 weeks my daughter & I found ourselves learning to survive in an unfamiliar and dangerous environment, on an isolated ridge, with nothing but a flimsy tent and the back of a small pickup for shelter. I only lived like this for 4 -5 weeks, but it was lifetimes of intensity. I was seeing and hearing things that the logical part of my mind knew were not visible or audible to others, and I felt weird, disoriented and afraid.
But the CONTENT of what I was seeing & hearing felt good, and true, and valuable. And how else are we to discern the origins of “Guidance” except by the purity and authenticity of our perceived experience?
I was shown that the channels and patterns of energy and frequency that made up the planetary grid of this living Earth were becoming damaged and disrupted by human activity. A major intersection of these “ley lines” occurred here at Rainbow Hearth, and they had been shut down. The Mission Impossible was to get the grid turned back on!
By early 1985 my new partner and eventual husband Richard and I began to pump water from the lake to the top of 200′ Thunder Ridge. Following guidance we directed the water to a particular spot and left the hose running hard for many months. For a long time the water would spread out, run a few feet, and disappear. And then one day it began to flood out across the surface of the land. Vision showed me a cave under the ridge that was now filled with water. Later, thru a visiting Native American Spiritual teacher, we were shown the example of a battery, which when it is dry cannot produce electricity, but when it is fully hydrated, comes alive.
The value of this place, as an important acupuncture point on the living planetary grid, has only grown over the following decades. There are so many tales of magic and mystery that can and should be told, but for now I hope I have been able to offer a foundation for others to be able to appreciate why this place needs to have a destiny and protection beyond my brief period of stewardship.
Several times over these decades of planning, building, and care taking, I have reached points where I simply had no more knowledge, ability, or resources to continue with what I have come to hold as a sacred mission. Not a quitter, never intended to give up, I have still found myself staring at failure. And every time, when I finally had to admit I could go no further and had to give up – out of that defeat a mysterious interaction with the Great Unknown would occur. Out of chaos a new pattern would emerge, out of death a rebirth .
I am again at one of these great intersections, and while accepting my personal limitations I am sensing new possibilities and opportunities both for RH & myself. I have mothered & nurtured this vision for a very long time and I believe it now has the strength & vitality to flourish beyond me.
MW
4/20/2025
